When I'm on this island it's glorious and at times even glamorous but sometimes getting off the island is anything but.
I am not going to let island life affect my integrity, I do not want to use the "ferry made me late" excuse but so far it has been sending my cortisol levels through the roof. Yesterday the power was off, yes they can turn off the power to an entire island. When the power goes the docks have to be lowered and raised manually. This dock cranking as I imagine it makes the ferry late. The power was off at 8am so I assumed the next ferry, the 9:35 wouldn't be too late. Assuming, as we all know makes and ass out of u and me, that was my first mistake. My second mistake was ignoring my dream's orders. I had a nightmare that the ferry was terribly late but I ignored my subconscious warning. As I got ready for work my sister called to inform me the ferry was docked. I grabbed my stuff and sprinted but it was a futile attempt. I watched the ferry sail away. After one sailing the ferry was 40 minutes behind and I was going to be late for work.
In a desperate attempt to be on time I took the coast link, a water taxi that goes to Granville Island. 20-dollars and 40 minutes later I was on my way. It was 10 am and I had to be at robson lulu by 11. I was determined to make it! As we approached False Creek the boat literally crawled, that is if you could crawl in the water. Lets just say front crawl would have been faster. By some gift of god I was let out on the downtown side of the bay. I had 12 minuets to get from the David Lam Park to Robson. I could make it! I hopped out of the boat and just started running. I had no plan which was obvious by my cutting corners, ignoring street signs and praying I didn't get hit by cars as I took advantage of the bike lane. It was me against the clock, story of my life but this time it wasn't for a pb. I arrived at the store at 10:56 trying not to cry and totally sweating but I made it! Is this worth it?
It was another public transport challenge as I caught the bus home. The late bus arrived to the ferry terminal late which meant I watched the ferry leave. If I hadn't been so tired my heart would have broke as I watched the ferry fill with cars and mockingly sail away. I missed the cut off. My solution to pass the time was to drowned my sorrows in a thin crust Bay Moorings pizza, and when that kitchen had closed early I went to the only store open bought 2 bananas, 2 licorice and a box of grapes.
When I'm taking public transit I realize there are so many factors out of my control and I might as well let it be. I know that resistance to what is happening is my mind trying to take control but I'm in love with control. I know eventually my stress levels will thank me when I can just let what is be so as I went to bed, told myself to relax and that life will be beautiful as it always is in the morning.
Today, I arrived to my car which was not where I left it. I wanted to laugh but I had to be at my massage appointment. I didn't want to be late and thank goodness my dad could drive me to the impound lot. I feel like I'm being tested. I know it was my decision to park overnight and take the tow risk but bowen'ers do it all the time. $160 later and I'm not going to take that risk again.
I am so grateful for my peaceful night, after my practice I looked up at the stars, thought about how I pretty much held crow for the first time and realized my problems are trivial compared to so many. I am so blessed, transportation is trivial. namaste.
I am so grateful for my peaceful night, after my practice I looked up at the stars, thought about how I pretty much held crow for the first time and realized my problems are trivial compared to so many. I am so blessed, transportation is trivial. namaste.
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